This past weekend I had the great opportunity to attend the MN District Bridging the Gap retreat and it was AMAZING, I just don’t know how else to describe it. But God moved, I’m not sure completely of the next step, but after some words from the Lord and a talk with my husband, we feel like God’s putting some puzzle pieces together, some we can see and some we can’t.
However, it’s been a long and trying summer… ok, so not just summer, it’s been going on a while. We weren’t completely sure where God was taking us, like we are just in one of those cheesy snow globes and just for kicks God picks us up and shakes us just when we thought we were starting to settle. There are things that we’ve been praying about for a very long time that we seriously need a breakthrough or I’m going to break down. I’m sure I am not the only one that has been there. The first time I heard Laura Story’s Blessings on the radio, I sat in the car and cried my eyes out before I went into the gym and I’m sure some of the people there thought I was crazy. I got the opportunity to sing at our church this weekend and I really had felt like I was supposed to sing that song, since I love it and I could get the music, I set that into motion. Not realizing how things were going to fit into place. As we left on the retreat, I listened to the other women talk in the bus about different things going on in their lives and how everyone’s had difficulties and it’s been a really rough summer. I just kind of tucked those things in the back of my mind and went on with the trip; or so I thought.
As the retreat started, they introduced Thelma Wells and for the first session she talked about Joy in Being… and one of the verses she talked about was Psalm 139: 7-12 “Where can I go from your Spirit? Where can I flee from your Presence? If I go up to the Heavens, you are there, if I make my bed in the depths, you are there. If I rise on the wings of the dawn, if I settle on the far side of the sea, even there your hand will guide me, your right hand will hold me fast. If I say, ‘Surely the darkness will hide me and the light become night around me, even the darkness will not be too dark for you, the night will shine like the day, for darkness is as light to you.”
We can’t get away from God.. now for someone who is running from God, that may not be very good news, but to me, I found comfort in it… it was a reminder to me that regardless of what we had gone through, and would continue to go through, he’s right there with us. This verse came back to me again this morning as I was singing, “What if your blessings come through raindrops, what if your healing comes through tears, what if a thousand sleepless nights are what it takes to know you’re near and what if trials of this life are your mercies in disguise?”
Through it all, has he brought healing? Yes. Have we seen blessings? Yes, Yes and Yes…things we never thought we would see, we have. We’ve drawn closer to God and I don’t think he’s done. He has more in store for all of us if we’re willing to be obedient…I started this weekend feeling ready to throw in the towel, stop praying about it and giving up, because NOTHING was happening. But on Friday night there was a word that stuck right to my heart…. DO NOT GIVE UP! Have things changed in the natural? Nope, not in the least, but it has changed my outlook and given me hope, and through Thelma Wells and Laura Story and Jenn Dwyer, I know God’s not finished with us yet. He hasn’t given up on us, but I’m going to continue to pray and know that God is with us right in the midst of it.
Moral of the Story: Don’t Give Up!!! Keep praying and God’s right there with you, life just plain stinks sometimes but let our disappointments, tears and trials lead us closer to God.